I’ve Been Working Hard!

I feel like I’ve neglected this blog so much lately!  It’s been a great source for me to share my life, thoughts, feelings, and journey in life after losing a child and having a rainbow.  It’s also been great to share my business adventures with you all!  So why can’t I seem to keep my posts regular?  Life just gets SO BUSY!  Here are some updates on Erin:

1) She had her 6th swim lesson today and received her certificate to pass onto the next level!  She will be a “Pike Plus” at the YMCA her next session.  Let’s hope the hubs agrees to sign up for fall lessons. 🙂  She’s been having a blast with it, and has 2 more lessons of this session left.

2) In about one month, Erin will be starting preschool.  This kid is growing up!  It’s exciting and hard to see at the same time.  She is just full of energy and quirks that are awesome to see.  I’ve recently discovered that when she asks, “Why” to a statement she says; if I ask “why” back, she will give me the reason.  90% of the time, it’s, “because I love you!”  Even when it doesn’t make sense.  Melts my heart every time.

3) Erin is STILL on a high from VBS (Vacation Bible School) last month.  She still sings her songs complete with actions once a day.  I learned at church yesterday that she also knows the words to the Hymn, “Holy Holy Holy” by Reginald Heber.  SWEET!

Here’s what’s been happening in my Etsy Shop:

1) I decided to have a sale for this month!  I am currently offering 15% off select cosmetic/beauty bags.  Use coupon code COSMETIC15 through 8/15/14 at check out!  I’d like to see a lot of these go to a new home! They also make great storage bags for puzzle pieces, letters, magnets, cars and other small toys our kids tend to lie around.  I’ve got one I use for Erin’s cars, and all those little Melissa and Doug wooden puzzle pieces that don’t have a containable storage bag?  PERFECT!!!!

2) I recently applied to 2 fall craft shows.  The first will be 10/26 in Dumont, NJ.  A Street Fair and Craft Show.  The second I am wait-listed for in Paramus, NJ 11/30.  I hoping to do well at both shows if possible.  It’s made me start working a ton on my travel felt boards. I’ve added some new sets since I’ve posts about them.  I’m up to 7 complete sets now: fish, flowers, monsters, cars, zoo animals, sweet treats and my latest: Dress Up Dolls!  Here’s a photo of the Dolls:

Felt Dress Up Doll Set

Felt Dress Up Doll Set

I’m so excited about these!  Erin helped me come up with designs for the clothing and she HAD to test them out before she ate her breakfast last week.  I just officially posted them for sale in my shop today.  They are available as a Felt Page Addition to the Art Busy Books AND an option with the travel felt boards (they are listed as an option, but I’m still editing the photos to show them in the listing, so you can still purchase them now if you choose. You will find them in the drop down menu in the options upon checkout.) My mom immediately asked me why there was no red hair (she’s a red head).  I politely said, “Red hair is just too gorgeous to create.  God did such a perfect job with red heads, I cannot even measure up.”  🙂

I have a few more felt set ideas on the list, so stay tuned for the upcoming Trains, weather, numbers and letters!  Hopefully they will be here in the next month! For now, I’ve got 7 sets available for purchase both with the felt page addition and travel felt boards.  (Click on the link to view each section) Here is a photo of all 7 sets available. These make a PERFECT entertainment addition to summer travels (Labor day is coming up!), restaurants, meetings, doc visits, etc.

7 Felt Sets Available

7 Felt Sets Available

3) Erin and I have been checking out as many Farmer’s Markets in the area as we can.  I don’t know why, but I just LOVE Farmer’s Markets!  Fresh, local, foods, eats, and stores coming out to promote themselves and socialize. We have been able to find amazing Lemonade, Italian Ice, Ice Cream, Local Raw Honey (Ping actually requested me buy some to help his allergies!), and other local homemade products.  The best one we’ve been to so far is the new River Edge Farmer’s Market.  They have music!! I have also noticed it to be a great opportunity to connect with local vendors and help promote my shop. I even found out about a new store that will be opening in Westwood, NJ called Market House!  It will feature all local handmade items!  So excited about it!  It’s presented me with some opportunities I hope to share with you soon if they come to fruition.

For now, I must get back to creating, stocking up on inventory and enjoying the last month of summer with my darling little one!  Happy August!


Miscarriage, Stillbirth and Infant Loss Matter Too

A friend of mine shared a blog post on Facebook a few hours ago.  I was so moved by it, I had to share this with you as well.  The words of Rachel Lewis explains how society perceives the difference between abortion and miscarriage/stillbirth and infant loss.  However, to all us parents that have lost a child, we are all grieving in the same way and in the same depth regardless of how we lost that child(ren).  It’s so refreshing to find other people’s words comforting and 100% relate, especially on a day when I feel that 0% relate.

Please, take the time to read, this post by The Lewis Note:

Why Miscarriage Matters when you’re Pro-Life.




From the Depths of the Heart

I often forget I started this blog to hash out my struggles and frustrations with life, with loss, with the world. I thought about keeping this place private, only for a few select eyes to see.  However, I felt that wasn’t fair to those that share the same obstacles I do, and those that have yet to endure what I’ve endured.  It’s been a great few years to open some of my deepest wounds to the world only to receive nothing but positive, encouraging words in return.  I’ve talked to and met some amazing people along the way.  I’ll never forget a woman in Chicago (you know who you are) coming to me just months after Rachel passed because she found my story online. I can only imagine her frantically scouring the internet for answers, explanations for her daughters passing of the very same extremely rare genetic disorder that Rachel had.  What started with a simple email grew into an awesome friendship.  Walking into a Thai restaurant in NYC, pregnant with hope and nerves, we met in person. What a great night is was- to live, love, laugh and cry over such similar stories.  I only wish we lived closer together.

My last post left words of strength, but to be honest, I’ve felt very weak these days.  I don’t know what it is.  I’m usually over my dark period that surrounds Rachel’s anniversary right now, but this year, I still often find myself needing more space, more time to grieve. Not a day has gone by this year that I have yet to not think of her, miss her, long for her.

I find myself trying to bury my thoughts in my work, focus on Erin, our new home, etc. But nothing seems to override my grief these past two months.  I miss her.  I miss her a ton.  I miss the old me.  I miss my oldest daughter.  I miss talking to people that 100% understand.

I find myself yearning for more community in our new town.  Thinking it will make things better.  Make things easier.  But each situation I find myself in has turned out to make it 10 times harder.  It makes me dread meeting more people in a time of my life where I need to be doing exactly that: meeting new people, building a new community.

I never thought I’d say this, but I think I actually miss New York City. I miss the people, the pace of life, the culture, the community. It’s funny because I never officially called it home.  I always said that I hated it and I couldn’t wait to leave. But it represents a lot to me.  A lot in my life. People that 100% understood my grief.